Day5 of new Norm

Learning.....let go and let god

【把一切看淡，心就不累了～】

人生沒有如果，只有後果和結果。

回首過去，我們似乎走了很多彎路，

放眼未來，又覺得一片迷茫。

說到底，我們之所以會心累，

是想要的太多，而能做的又太少。

人，其實不需要太多的東西，

只要健康，真誠地活著，

也不失為一種富有。

想不開的，就不想，得不到的，就不要，

學會看淡，放下！

人生苦短，又何必執著，難為自己呢？

是你的，就是你的。

我們努力了，珍惜了，問心無愧。

其他的，交給命運。

其實，如果靜下心來，不要管那麼多，

只做好眼前的每一件事，

生活就會簡單很多、快樂很多。

累了的時候，就給自己的心放個假吧。

想不開的事情就別去一直想，

得不到的東西就別執念太深。

把一切看淡，心就不累了！

知世故而不世故，才是最善良的成熟。

生命中有很多事情足以把你打倒，

但真正打倒你的是自己的心態。

人這一輩子就這麼短短几十年，

應該學會開心地活好每一天。

把很多事情看淡一點，

換個角度去想，一切便會豁然開朗！

Bcos you are the best thing that ever happened in my life. 

Day4 of New Norm

Still Can't stay away from placing a BET .... HAIZZZZ 

Ofc i still Lose hahahaha but I'm still smiling 😃 

Regardless what leads to the last bet... i hv a choice.... i still love to place the Bet. I know i shldnt trust anymore.... I still keep trying hahaha

It doesn't mean I'm not good enough. Will take it one Last Bet @ a Time.

Once i ignore the last bet.. i will be at this mode

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Day 3. New Norm

Getting use to the new norm....

No longer need to wake up in the morning .... to check the last bet.

No longer need to check the last bet before i sleep.....

No longer need to look at the livescore regularly for the last bet

Just keeping quiet and notice everything.  Actions/behaviour tells the truth.

As i always share..... 

NOTHING CHANGES IF NOTHING CHANGES.

so now.... 不闻不问。。。perhaps life wld be easier for everyone. I wont be the EXTRA ... and I wont be in your way too.

But but  ...... i still keep checking my last bet regularly on the phone even when there's no bet 🤣🤣🤣

Yes i do..... i love my last bet

Wahahahahaha🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪

Day 2 of New Chapter

Suddenly realised...... not longer can follow my heart le...

Fcking bitch.... keep giving me bad directions hahahahaha 🤣🤣🤣

Unable to hold on even for 1 day ... and went bck to the "last bet" ... bcos i follow my heart...And of course, i end up losing!!

Will not control anymore... Wont ask...

Won't dictate anything from day 1...

Day One Since Last Bet

How do i feel?? 

Yup. Fake it.... till i get it. And continue move on. 'The bet' don't give a fck or care a fck how i feel. There's plenty punters out there ... there are big players out there....

Pain.... yes.... 

Miss the last bet.... yes like fck

this too shall pass. I have been going in thru pain so long in my life even to the moment that my cock can't "stand" anymore... i oso don't bothered. 

I hv been to hell and bck... i hv gone thru biggest insult that you wld ever imagine.....

Moreover.... my time left on earth is running out each day.

And I was never the one. Time to let the Last Bet go..

I knw i am being betrayed once more

..... what's new.... i oso have a choice right !!

I just love my last Bet. So willing to take the betrayal.... and waiting for the next win.

A goos song To describe my relationship with my beloved Addiction, my last bet

🎼鬼迷心窍🎼  

是鬼迷了心竅也好 是前世的姻緣也好

然而這一切已不再重要 如果你能夠重回我懷抱

是命運的安排也好 是你 存心的捉弄 也好

然而這一切已不再重要 我願意隨你 到天涯海角

same thing is happening yet again

Why am i not surprised?  

Nothing Changes if Nothing Changes.

I was never the one right from the beginning....... 

It's no longer a mistake... It's a decision made...

And so .... no point saying sorry anymore...

Nothing to hide.... your behavior is obvious. 

But no matter what happen down the road..... i will always be good to you to everyone.

And for sure... i wont begged anyone to stay too.

  

Just for today.... i will go with the flow 🙌

Still Unable to Let go....

The void is indeed too huge..... nothing can filled it really... it has been years since my destructive gambling.

And now I'm struggling with My Last Bet..... Holding on to this Last bet dearly. And hoping for this Miracle in Life. SIMPLY UNABLE TO LET IT GO

QUOTE

"To let go does not mean to get rid of. To let go means to let be. When we let be with compassion, things come and go on their own.” –Jack Kornfield

ACTUALLY,  WHAT BULLSHIT IS THIS 

😂😂😂😂😂

I KNOW.... Holding on to THIS last BET doesn’t fix anything. JUST hoping that this last bet is my biggest Win in Life.

Replaying the past "battles" over and over again doesn’t change ANYTHING TOO and wishing things were different doesn’t make it so too. These past will just kept HAUNTING ME.

ALL I can do is try to ACcept whatever it is, Holding on to what's left, be grateful.....  that Im still able to hold on to this last Bet (hahahahaa) .... and then slowly learn to let it go. 

That’s a Real pain in my daily Life. I keep trying to make changes... knowing the insecurity inside me. 

Today i realised.... not knowing I hv actually lost the last bet... bcos it was never meant to be from the start.

Now.... I have to learn to let go of what is hurting Me, even if it feels almost impossible.

Oddly enough, painful feelings from the past now can be comfortable too. 

MAYBE in some ways, I may not know who I am without these pain in the past, and without holding on to this last BET in life.

Bcos it just keep me going and now running 🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️ In Life, there is no turing back.

When the time comes...... or when my time is up....regardless how reluctant I am.... how sad I'm ....

I STILL HAVE TO LET IT GO

Enjoy this song

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I can see clearly now the rain is gone.
I can see all obstacles in my way.
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind.
It's gonna be a bright (bright)
Bright (bright) sunshiny day.
It's gonna be a bright (bright)
Bright (bright) sunshiny day.

Oh, yes I can make it now the pain is gone.
All of the bad feelings have disappeared.
Here is that rainbow I've been praying for.
It's gonna be a bright (bright)
Bright (bright) sunshiny day.

Look all around, there's nothing but blue skies.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing but blue skies.

I can see clearly now the rain is gone.
I can see all obstacles in my way.
Here is that rainbow I've been praying for.
It's gonna be a bright (bright)
Bright (bright) sunshiny day.
It's gonna be a bright (bright)
Bright (bright)…