Day23 ~ New Norm. Coping

Im definitely adjusting well and coping fine by doing my own emotions inventory for the past 23 days..

Does it works? Oh yes... i hv it as the wall paper and constantly remind myself.

I do understand.... when the trust is broken.... it gonna get real tough.

I cannot control all that is happening 

But i hv a choice how i react to it.

Move on... Let go... Let God.

I will not lose Myself !!!

Day 22 ~New Norm. 21/90

Im glad.... i survived 21/90... it's really rough for me tough. Able to channel all the energy towards run

Now working towards 90 days to build a new lifestyle without you. Bcos it's getting 过火了。

怎么忍心怪你犯了错　

是我给你自由过了火
让你更寂寞　才会陷入感情漩涡
怎么忍心让你受折磨　

是我给你自由过了火
如果你想飞　伤痛我背

Day21.New Norm ~ Keep Calm

It's over.... keep calm 

Stay Focus... Do my job well

Keep Myself fit and healthy.

And Wait patiently for next BET. 

Because......

Day 20 New Norm. Idiot

Feeling like a Idiot....... 

staring at the phone... checking livescore.... checking the odds....

BUT THERE ISN'T ANY LAST BET!

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Still i keep checking.... before i sleep, waking up to pee, first thing in the morning.. 

Oh oh oh... SPURS lost the EPL cup late in the 2nd Half... and SON CRIED!% 

Seibei... fake..... all drama!! Just fake for the sake of social media perhaps? 

🤣🤣🤣

I won't win anything.... this is a scam for idiots like me. Have to learn and shift my focus .... it's really hard. Really hard this time.😭

Day19 ~ New Norm. Game Over

Yup. As what the title of this post indicated.....

Thanks for playing. Things are pretty much clearer now.

Boss trying to prepare me for things ahead i guess.... bet after last bet... and from what i saw on the cards.. i believe and over analyse with what i saw in the behaviour and actions

Can't afford to lose? Then dun play the game.... it's not for one with a weak heart le.... roller coasters high and low which is better than Sex.... it's an Art.

But dun let the loses turn me into a heartless monster.... i am not... and i wont be one. 

Im much much better than that.

Don't need to ask why.... but understand every promises even those on the cards... are merely words

IN THE END.... i just have to tell myself.... THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

 

When lonely again... the addict wld then sing...

当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个'bet'来陪
你的快乐伤悲只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Day18 ~ Choice

You chosen your adventure... placed your bet and it didnt really work out.... so you wana go back to previous choice as back up?? 

Oh.... i feel guilty now placing that bet?? Har? Will bookie refund you??

Hahahahaha

I really strong... hurt me.... no problem.  I go place another bet!%

Day17. New Norm ~ Listen & Watch

If you wana know someone's mind 

LISTEN TO THEIR WORDS ....

If you wana know someone's heart

WATCH THEIR ACTIONS ....

That's how they define or classified us .... me  .... as ADDICT

As i grow older.... my eye sights become much poorer....

BUT the funny thing is that .. i see thru your bullshit much better too.

我很好骗？？ just bcos i am keeping quiet and staying away all these time.

The last bet is a Drug... toxic and for sure...

However.... I'm still full of gratitude. 🙏🙏🙏

Thanks for making my life worthwhile as it's coming to an end.