Recovery is Abt Changes

Recovery is not just about stopping gambling or staying stop ....

Recovery is about Changes ...... a process that brings about change in our lives. We need that change if nothing change... nothing changes ..

It’s important that I always remain open-minded when others point out my shortcomings, for they are bringing to light opportunities for me to change and grow.

When I stopped gambling, I realized I couldn't deal with my daily lives ... I couldn't deal with my relationships .... I couldn't deal with my own emotions ..... there's so much emotions in me that make me very sensitive to remarks made ......

Initially I met those remarks and criticisms with anger, rage, reacting very defensively .... 

I was angry with almost everything !

Then as I grow in my recovery, I realise that reacting defensively limits my ability to receive the help they are offering us; letting go of my defenses actually help me to open the door to change, growth, and new freedom.

I started to work on my negativity and changing them to positive energy ....... trust me ... means really alot alot of restraint, alot of discipline and alot of effort on my part

<< Everything happens for a reason !! There is definitely something that my spiritual higher power wants me to learn>>

Today, each day in the recovery process will bring me an opportunity for further change and growth. I will do to the best of my ability, applying the spiritual principles I learned in recovery in my daily life.

I am not only powerless over my addictions, but also powerless over the people, places and things around me. I can't change them, but I can certainly change myself. When I start to change, people and things around me will also start to change !!

The more I learn to greet change with an open mind and heart, I believe the more I will grow and the more comfortable I will become with my recovery.

And After 10 years on ...... I have somehow grow up to be a better person .... Same Bennie but one without needing to use Anger as my defense anymore  .