Gambling Addiction - My Last Bet

My name is Bennie and I am a Gambling Addict. The road to recovery is always under construction .... Stop gambling is just the beginning of a painful journey .... Recovery is not about stopping gambling.Its about changing oneself to deal with life. Life on Life's term just Sucks !!!! The only thing I can do today is to change myself .... Accept the current stage of life I am in and deal with it with the best of my ability. One Day at A time. keep the faith , keep trying

Wednesday, May 12, 2021

Day 36 New Norm is Over.

Yup. Will stop at day 36. New norm is over.

No point forcing it when it has withered. Life goes on... with or without the next bet. Something just cant be forced.

I will be ok.

Farewell new norm. Guess the more i write... the worst i will struggle.

A powerful msg here for me.... this is the one that prompt me to end the writing.....

Let the pain slowly heal ....

Tuesday, May 11, 2021

Day 35 New Norm. IT'S OK

It's ok....

When it's gone..... i need to learn to let it go.

The last word that i need to hear is trust me....

Day 34 New Norm ~ Overthinking

Overthinking is the biggest cause of all unhappiness.....

But ....

When I overthink bcos i notice everything...... it's indeed depressing.

One's behaviour, actions and choices tell the truth!!

Overthink??? Hahaha

Monday, May 10, 2021

Day 33. New Norm. Losing My Cool

Unable to contain my unhappiness...

I lost my cool.... but was fast to get composure and move on... shifting my focus and attention to something else

Does it really matter does it.... i will take everything as none of my business. Why shld it bothers me!

But remember this.....

All fucking fake! All fucking lies.

It's a choice is same thing keep happening..... it's a decision and no point saying sorry if it doesnt mean anything.

Fcking lies! Talk is fcking cheap. Prove it

Saturday, May 8, 2021

Day 29-32 New Norm. Pain is Gone

32 days of New Norm..... and i am adjusting quite well.

Learnt my lesson, make the changes.. ... and surprisingly pain is gone too

Tuesday, May 4, 2021

Day 26/27/28 New Norm ⁴²

It's more stable now after adjusting 21/90 days.

Im able to maintain calm and peace within

Carry on my daily life with passion and purpose. When Im placing a bet, im also calm without expectation.

No point being angry anymore.... bcos i still love placing the bet.

Im glad that im able to go with the flow.... let things take it course and see how it goes.

At the end of the day..... i knw that im not the one!

How much time is left for me??

Just keep loving.🙌🙌🙌 bcos...

Saturday, May 1, 2021

Day24/25 New Norm.

Awakening to these 4 words

静 (keep calm)

忍 (tolerance)

让 (take a step back, let it be)

淡 (take it easy and let go)

these 4 words..... and i will try my best to make this change

I choose these 4 words. Thank You

Help For Problem Gamblers in Singapore

1) National Addiction Management Centre
Gambling Helplines:
1800-X-GAMBLE (1800-9-426253)
1800-6-668-668
http://www.nams.org.sg

2) WE CARE Community Service
Helpline: 6471 5346
admin@wefoundation.org.sg
http://www.wecare.org.sg/

3) Thye Hua Kwan Moral Society
Helpline : 6337 1201
http://www.thkms.org.sg/

Debts Repayment Issues
1) One Hope Centre
Helpline : +65 6547 1011 (9am to 6pm)
http://onehopecentre.org/

2) Credit Counseloring Singapore
Hotline 1800 CALL CCS (1800 2255 227).
Mondays–Fridays, 9am–6pm
http://www.ccs.org.sg/

Gambling And Depression

Although not an addiction, depression is commonly associated with problem gambling.

Depression can both result from problem gambling and exacerbate it. The problem gambler may experience a strong desire to gamble during times of depression.

Symptoms of depression include:

1. Depressed mood most of the day
2. Diminished interest in pleasure
3. Significant weight changes
4. Difficulty in sleeping
5. Fatigue or loss of energy
6. Feelings of guilt or worthlessness
7. Diminished ability to think or concentrate

Alcohol or drug use may also occur in conjunction with gambling. After consuming excessive alcohol or drugs the problem gambler is drawn to gamble. After losing money gambling, the gambler feels an urge to consume alcohol or drugs.

AM I A COMPULSIVE GAMBLER ??

1. Did you ever lose time from work due to gambling?

2. Has gambling ever made your home life unhappy?

3. Did gambling ever affect your reputation?

4. Have you ever felt remorse after gambling?

5. Did you ever gamble to get money with which to pay debts or otherwise solve financial difficulties?

6. Did gambling cause a decrease in your ambition or efficiency?

7. After losing, did you feel you must return as soon as possible and win back your losses?

8. After a win, did you have a strong urge to return and win more?

9. Did you often gamble until your last dollar was gone?

10. Did you ever borrow to finance your gambling?

11. Have you ever sold anything to finance your gambling?

12. Were you reluctant to use gambling money for normal expenditures?

13. Did gambling make you careless of yourself or your family?

14. Have you ever gambled longer than you had planned?

15. Have you ever gambled to escape worry and trouble?

16. Have you ever committed or considered committing an illegal act to finance gambling?

17. Has gambling caused you to have difficulty in sleeping?

18. Have arguments, disappointment, or frustrations caused you to gamble?

19. Have you had an urge to celebrate any good fortune with a few hours of gambling?

20. Have you ever considered self-destruction as a result of your gambling?

*--Seven or more positive responses suggest pathologic gambling.Reprinted with permission. --*

12 Step Recovery Program

1) We admitted we were powerless over gambling - that our lives had become unmanageable.

2) Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to a normal way of thinking and living.

3) Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of this Power of our own understanding.

4) Made a searching and fearless moral and financial inventory of ourselves.

5) Admitted to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.

6) Were entirely ready to have these defects of character removed.

7) Humbly asked God (of our understanding) to remove our shortcomings.

8) Made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.

9) Make direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.

10) Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.

11) Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.

12) Having made an effort to practice these principles in all our affairs, we tried to carry this message to other compulsive gamblers.