~~ I AM ADDICTION ~~

In my early recovery, someone gave this GA-literature to me ...... I am currently working my steps for coming back up from a slippery slope .... perhaps I should call it a full mental relapse ....


I didn't go back to full destructive gambling .... but the mind and emotion was already there and I was on the verge of going back .... the thoughts were so real, so frightening and scary.


Thank God that I am in recovery, and I decided to call it quit for the moment but I still cannot accept that "this is not my game anymore".... It's a real struggle. A struggle for life. I spoke to my wife and Thank God she was supportive and understanding.


Many ask .. What is addiction .... Here's the answer from "itself" - Addiction

I Am Addiction

I start in small subtle ways promising many things
I promise you enjoyment and pleasure beyond your wildest dreams,
I deliver guilt & despair more horrible than your worst nightmare,
I promise you power & courage,I give you feelings of powerlessness & hopelessness,

I will force you to live in fear always,
I promise you relief and escape from all your daily problems,
I create for you greater problems than you ever imagined,
I promise you many friends, I allow you only isolation,
I promise happiness, I create much sorrow,


I will steal from you your dignity ,your families, your friends, your children, your homes, your demons, your spirit & your life, for love, freedom & happiness are impossible to find in my presence, So never underestimate me,


I am devious & manipulating, I have no preferences as to who I pick as my victim, rich or poor, young or old, black, white, yellow or red.


I have killed men, women & children, I have no conscience. So if you have met me, always be aware if you think you can beat me that I will be gone from your life and all will go well again.



Never forget that I will always be there, waiting in the dark shadows just around the corner.


I am very patient and I will laugh in your face if I can lure you into my evil world of hell on earth once again.

I Am Addiction