Anger

Anger is never a clever response..

In recovery... I was filled with so much anger...

Initially I was anger with people places and things... then I realized that I was even more anger with myself...

There was so many things to deal with in recovery. .

Stopping gambling
Dealing with debts
Repairing relationships
Getting back to work
Facing all the "talks", finger point
Handling shame and guilt
Coping with urges...

And so many other thingy happening around us....

So at such high stress level.. how to stay cool and not lose our temper when being poke...

Not possible? ?

Many at times I thought to myself..

"I have already stopped gambling! ! Why cant they be grateful for that... !!"

......

Think again.....

Who should be the one that should be grateful. .. "they"??  ..

There are  still people ard you..
They are still staying your side. .

The damages, pain that I have caused..... wont just go away bcos I have stopped gambling...

Won't "angry responses" make it worst...... ????

It is not that we dont response when being abused....

Just don't response in ANGER..

don't say anything if whatever you say is not gona be nice...

Just keep silent if unable to smile..

Your effort in not responding in anger and saying ugly remarks  will be a very strong foundation you need in recovery. ..

It will require alot of effort.

Take it easy, one day @ a time.