One Day @ A Time.

No matter how hard i tried.... it seems never good enough for everyone.

But that doesn't  stop me from believing .... that doesn't stop me from loving ... and that doesn't stop me from continuing doing what i have to on a daily basis.

The whole world can continue to pick on me.... continue to doubt me.

i am already disqualified i know that.

Givee me shit and slowly i will use them to build a garden...

Push me to a corner. ... i will fight back slowly to regain my ground.

If i fall i will get up and fight. I Won't Run !!! It will be just too Tiring 

I will stay focus.... and very focus esp for 2018!!! Bcos there is going to be alot of changes and transition

Life will not stop just bcos we can't get what we want and the way we want it.

We need to continue with life and work within whatever limitations that life has given us.

It all started bcos of me..... I can't go back and change the beginning but i can change the Ending !!!

Im the cause of everything.  So i wont complain and i wont pick on anyone or anything.

I will push on ... One Day @ A Time. This is not how my story is going to End.

Doing my best in everything i do and keep believing. One day .... all things will fall in place.... But not how i want it to be... But how BOSS  has put in place for me!!

Bring on the STORMS !!!! 

I will maneuver around them and continue to dance in the rain.

Recovery is always under construction .... 

One day At A time, Easy Does it and Turn it Over.

When You focus on "Problems", you will get more Problems

BUT

When You focus on "Possibilities", you will get more Opportunities!!

Stay Positive and Stay Focus.  

I am the Problem ....

From the beginning ..... I am the Cause of everything. It's all my fault.

I look into the Mirror today .... and for once, I can't smile to myself anymore. Everyone around me is hurting.

So it has got to be true ..... THAT 

I have never intend to harm anyone and hurt anyone .... 

So many things happened over the years.... And I have never given up trying to change and trying to be good. I am not prefect. I have my issues that I need to work on ...

All of you can doubt ME .... I am ok with that because I am used to it anyway ...

All of you can continue to have a go at me..

All of you can continue to pick on me...

All of you can continue to doubt me...

All of you can continue to say 

I am the problem!!!!! Yes i  am the problem bcos i exist in your heart.

I will continue to be good but i won't waste my time proving to anyone....

Things are happening according to what is shown on the Cards. I just have to accept it and deal with it one thing at a time.

Everything happens the way it meant to be.

I used to have those negative thoughts. ...

I am not good enough 

I am that selfish bastard 

I am a useless addict 

I am already old and disqualified. .. there are better alternative around me...

If i am the problem, why don't get rid of me once and for all ... 

But for now..... i will continue to be a good person and no matter what i do ... 

I am never good enough. That's for sure.

Feeling helpless BUT ....

Something to remember really.......

Feeling sense of helplessness

And perhaps .... losing hope too......

Not too sure how i manage to hang on all these while ..... hahahahaha.

Life on Life'S term ... simply just sucks. Especially when you are already disqualified.

Felt like quitting and give up everything. Feeling helplessness and hopelessness ..

Just being felt like a prisoner with eyes on me ... watching everything i do... every step i take.... waiting to have another go at me ...

Then when i was preparing for my work this morning .... I saw this ... pasted there by my dad in the late 1980s. Actually if I were to take a step back and look .... True. 

Thank you all of you who are trying to tear me apart and put me down. I realized that I have grown much stronger and much more resilient to all these dramas and at the same time paying back my karma. 

So seriously. .. all of you that want to see me breaks.... hahahaha ¥ou have to wait abit longer!!!!

Because I want to see what will happen ... KARMA awaits for me ... SURE SURE !! But remember that KARMA awaits for YOU too.

感恩你们 !!