My name is Bennie and I am a Gambling Addict. The road to recovery is always under construction .... Stop gambling is just the beginning of a painful journey .... Recovery is not about stopping gambling.Its about changing oneself to deal with life. Life on Life's term just Sucks !!!! The only thing I can do today is to change myself .... Accept the current stage of life I am in and deal with it with the best of my ability. One Day at A time. keep the faith , keep trying
Life On Life's Term
接受它 - - Accept it
処理它 - - Due With it (To the best of your ability)
放下它 - - Let go of it
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Responsibility
Friday, November 21, 2008
Financial Fears
Sunday, September 21, 2008
~ Serenity Prayers ~
I welcome change. With the help of my Higher Power, I will find the courage to change the things I can.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
~ ARMOUR OF RECOVERY ~
BOOTS OF PEACE
Thursday, August 7, 2008
GRATEFUL LIST
“We focus on anything that isn’t going our way and ignore all the beauty in our lives.”
We’re sure to find that we have literally hundreds of things in our lives that inspire our gratitude. Even those of us who are suffering from an illness or who have lost all material wealth will find blessings of a spiritual nature for which we can be thankful. An awakening of the spirit is the most valuable gift an addict can receive.
Just for today:
Sunday, July 27, 2008
STEP WORK ~ GA Guide to Workng Step One
Step One tells us that admitting our gambling defeat is humiliating and we naturally resent this show of weakness.
- This opposes our instincts.
- Destruction is at hand when we gamble.
- We are at war with ourselves when attempting to gamble denying our failure and unwilling to admit our weakness.
Discuss with your sponsor or counselor or another fellow member:
A) When did we first discover and/or sense the problem of our compulsive gambling ?
B) Describe instances that prove we can no longer gamble normally.
In GA we discover that admitting our gambling problem to others has become the foundation on which our recovery will be built.
- Our foundation can only be as strong as our continued belief that we are powerless.
- Our reservation about powerless over gambling (doubt), block our recovery.
Discuss with your sponsor or counselor or another fellow member:
A) Has acceptance of our “powerlessness” grown while attending meetings ?
B) Have we stopped searching for answers and causes of our gambling problem and started to deal with the problem on a daily basis ? ? Explain
Step One announces we are instinctively shocked when told that “will power” and self-knowledge will not break our obsession to gamble.
Discuss with your sponsor or counselor or another fellow member:
A) How has “will power” failed in the face of gambling ?
B) What is the meaning of the slogan “KEEP IT SIMPLE” ?
C) Have we begun to come to Gamblers Anonymous for our own personal survival - - not to satisfy others ?
Our failing brought us to GA. By admitting and accepting our problem we become willing to listen and remain open-minded.
Discuss with your sponsor or counselor or another fellow member:
A) How we learn by attending meetings regularly ?
B) Are regular meetings a chore or source of relief ?
C) Has our ability to listen improved steadily or are we bored at times ?
D) Is Gamblers Anonymous our mirror ?
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Low Self Esteem
“...we covered low self-esteem by hiding behind phony images that we hoped would fool people. The masks have to go ....”
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We use false fronts to hide our true personality, to disguise our lack of self-esteem. These masks hide us from others and also from our own true selves. By living a lie, we are saying that we cannot live with the truth about ourselves. The more we hide our real selves, the more we damage our self-esteem.
One of the miracles of recovery is the recognition of ourselves, complete with assets and liabilities.
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Monday, July 21, 2008
Surrender & Acceptance ~ A Continual Process ....
Surrender is just for newcomers, right? Wrong!
The problem is, we think we know enough, and we think that merely knowing is enough. But it’s what we learn and what we do after we think we know it all that really makes the difference.
When we find we are still powerless, our lives again unmanageable, we need to seek the care of a Power greater than ourselves. We need continual surrender and acceptance. We need to learn to accept people place and things as they are. No one will be grateful for our recovery ....... We need to learn surrender to life terms and live on it's term ..... We need to accept that the quick fix solution no longer works for us .... We need to accept it's HIS timing and not ours ..... We need to surrender our "false hope" of a big win is still possible ...
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Don't Be Discouraged
There was a time when we have stop gambling, becoming sober and staying clean ......
THEN there came a time when we slipped and relapsed.
There was a time when we felt so discouraged, so lousy and wanted to end it all when we kept hitting wall and making no progress ..... BUT
Now is the time for us to pick ourselves up, regain sanity again and continue the healing process.
There was a time when we were so broken down ....Now is the time to build ourselves up.
There was a time when we were at war deep within ....
Now is the time to restore peace within.
Friday, July 4, 2008
Handling Conflicts
From time to time, we all experience conflicts. However, in recovery, it may be that we just can’t seem to get along with people around us. Maybe our family and loves one are driving us crazy.
Dealing with any conflict is difficult for recovering addicts. When tempers rise, it is often a good idea to back away from the situation until cooler minds prevail. We can always return for further discussion when we have calmed down.
We can’t avoid troubling situations, but we can use time and distance to find perspective.
Just for today:
The principles my program has given me are sufficient to guide me through any situation. I will strive to confront conflict in a healthy way.Recovery is Discovery. It is .....
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2) Learning how to live, incorporating the spiritual principles we learned in the 12 steps recovery program into our lives, to live life on life's term and to liverin harmony with others and most importantly with ourselves.
Friday, June 27, 2008
Open-Mind
Thursday, June 26, 2008
My Struggles with My Discoveries....
But now when those are over, when I have served my terms, when my loved ones, family and friends felt that I have learnt my lessons well, learnt it the hard way, I would not repeat the same mistake, I can be normal again....... The pressure of staying stop suddenly is gone ...... the false belief system of I can resume as a social gambler or controlled gambling is possible because I have learnt enough of / about gambling addiction which would prevent me from returning to my previous destructive life pattern.
The hope or perhaps the false hope that God will now be merciful to me and grant me a huge win to recover all my losses returns because I have stayed clean.... because I have made changes..... because I have trust God ...... All the false belief system, the addict within starts to play the mind game....
Saturday, June 21, 2008
ACCEPTANCE
"Oh sure ... sure ... just like that.... it's just so simple.... I thought...."
I don't get over a high wall by banging my head against it - I will just get a headache and a bruised head. If I sit down in a shade of the wall and say "MAYBE I'm better off on this side, afterall !!"
"Blessed is the man who trust in GOD, whose condfidence is in HIM"
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Share Your Story, Experience and Strength Here !!
Take a look at the right side of the blog. I have 3 songs available for your pleasure listening while you share your story, experience and strength with fellow members here ~ in this blog title !!!!
Understand and Apply the 12 Step Recovery Program
Whatever the reaction, do not panic. When the higher power gave us the 12 steps, he also gave us plenty of time and better still, he gave all of us the same time --- THE REST OF OUR LIVES.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Right Believing Leads To Right Living
Monday, June 9, 2008
Old Dreams Needn’t Die
Starting today, I’ll do whatever I can to realize my dreams.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Steps towards "Slip"
Stage 1 = Doubt created
Stage 3 =
Stage 4 = Attracted By Tempation
Stage 5 = Self-Desires within increases
Vulenerable to Deception
(Self-Denial)
Finally .... Stage 7 = Giving in to temptation....
This is my version and experience on how temptaion works against me ......Understanding the various stages of the temptation cycle allows me to build my own safety nets.
"EVERY STEP TOWARDS GOD IN RECOVERY ~ KILLS A DOUBT"
This program offers HOPE
We can settle our insecurities by reviewing our Third Tradition, which assures us that “the only requirement for membership is a desire to stop gambling.”
The Return To Gambling ~ A True Story
I became hysterical. My therapy hinted at the disaster to come. Although I was actively involved in meetings and helping new members, I went back to gambling. I placed a bet. Even it's a small bet. It's still a bet. I gave in to acheive the mood alteration which I desired. It works 100%. I slipped......
Friday, June 6, 2008
Fellowship of GA
Coping With Urges to Gamble
..... Changes takes time and it takes alot of practise .....
2) Pick up the phone to call a fellow GA members to talk, someone that you trust
3) Read and re-read GA materials to re-inforeced the importance of staying away from betting
4) Work your 12 steps recovery program on a consistence and regular basis
5) Don't go in or near gambling establishments
6) Avoid looking at things which will trigger your gambling thoughts
7) Avoid being caught up in gambling discussion or analysis
8) Keep away from your gambling associates
9) Get someone to control your daily allowance... if not possible, carry only the bare minimum of money you need for the day
10) Start changing your attitude ..... there's alot of difference between "I HAVE TO STOP GAMBLING" and "I WANT TO STOP GAMBLING"
11) Change Behavior ... most difficult task ..... but it's needed to prevent a return to your previous life destructive patterns
12) Acknowledge the urges, and don't fight against it. Be aware of it - don't denied
13) Delay your bets, putting it off again and again..... urges too shall pass
14) Change the thoughts in your mind ... change the slide
15) Accept the fact that you cannot gamble safely
16) Keep saying the serenity prayers